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November/December
2006
TAKE YOUR SOUL TO WORK
According to
email responses and follow-up conversations, October's newsletter
stirred many readers. I have appreciated you taking the time to
process your thoughts, practices, beliefs with me. I value all viewpoints.
Some of you
were dismayed with my view of educators. I'm guessing my perspective
on habitual practices of coercion may have been interpreted as pinning
a "bully" label on my colleagues. Although I am disheartened
with the current state of conditions in education and the antiquated
practices, I hold the utmost respect and esteem for this under-acknowledged,
under-appreciated, under-valued and under-compensated profession.
And so I dedicate this newsletter to the hearts and souls of educators.
Teachers fulfill
countless roles and wear a repertoire of hats on a daily basis:
counselor, mediator, nurturer, caregiver, parent, student, designer,
advocate, interior decorator, organizer, guide, accountant, drill
sergeant, comedian, judge, jury, decision maker, coach, nurse, janitor,
artist, lifesaver, chef, punching bag, musician,
hero, pillow, protector, expert, warrior, visionary, optimist, disciplinarian,
editor, evaluator, advisor, leader, problem solver, crafter, specialist,
negotiator, task master, motivator, creator, minister, scheduler,
multi-tasker, time-keeper, referee, filter, trustee, disseminator
of information, traffic cop, guardian, friend, vet - just to name
a few!!! What other profession serves humanity in such a profoundly
multi-faceted manner???
In addition
to the multi-dimensional demands, there are innumerable conditions
which compound the unique perplexities of teaching: excessive useless
meetings; expectations for optimal learning with minimal resources
and/or essential supplies; competition and contempt among colleagues;
blaming, shaming and threats from media, parents, administrators,
society; recurring changes and enforcement of policies, practices,
philosophies without teacher input or agreement; failure to view
educators as knowledgeable, creative professionals; scripted, dry,
meaningless and non-engaging curriculum; and these are just the
tip of the iceberg.
Over time, often
sooner than later, the wear and tear of these conditions eventually
does its damage and educators fail to thrive. As we gradually disengage
from our heart's calling, our passion, purpose and joy, educators
begin to believe we no longer make a difference and fall into a
lull of boredom, apathy, routines and habitual patterns - our livelihood
becomes lifeless. As our awareness of the widening division between
who we are and what we do grows, there is more inclination to become
cynical, resentful, sarcastic, distracted, unproductive, inefficient,
ineffective or indifferent and wind up feeling - under-acknowledged,
under-appreciated, and under-valued.
What typically
happens next is the escalating teacher's lounge competition for
the "worst kid, worst parent, worst classroom" award where
no one wins because the true needs for empathic listening, compassion
and support simply don't exist. OR educators become workaholics
and develop an "I can't wait until Friday" attitude (starting
with Monday morning), striving for a break from this painful existence.
This vicious cycle is usually the impetus for educators finally
waving good-bye to their career.
Parker Palmer,
author of the inspirational book The Courage to Teach, suggests
educators look beyond
external conditions as the cause of stress and unhappiness. He invites
educators to journey inward to
"re-align one's self with one's genuine nature and truest values",
so that drawing upon and staying connected with our loving, peaceful
and compassionate inner spirit can be achieved.
Late last spring,
near the end of school year, after my canine companion passed away
and I was grieving the losses of several friends, I found little
solace in anything. At the same time, I noticed my life's work becoming
increasingly less satisfying. I would routinely go home in tears,
frustrated and dissatisfied with my inability to connect with students
and my lack of teaching presence. I blamed the system, the curriculum,
the principal,
the parents and anything I else I could find fault with. Little
did I realize at that time how much I was responsible for creating
my own personal hell with each classroom experience, each interaction.
My work conditions had
not changed - just me.
As I withdrew
inward and immersed myself in solitude and deep self-inquiry (and
still do!), I was eventually able to hear anew my soul's sweet song
of grace and beauty longing to be expressed uniquely as me. I perceived
this tune as my heart's innate rhythm orchestrating and harmonizing
my connection with the eternal.
More awakened
to my true essence, I am now experiencing greater joy in living
from the inside out, releasing what no longer serves life, and viewing
myself and others with compassionately greater acuity. My heart
is growing and glowing with the realization that the most important
relationship is the one I have with myself. When I am loving, compassionate,
nurturing and accepting of myself, I view and treat others from
the same reference point. When I am not, well, you know what the
results are, don't you?
An affinity
with the eternal sacredness of life is our heart's deepest longing,
even at work - especially at work. Every moment invites us to connect
with our inner compass, our internal guide for soul-full living.
It is no longer possible to check our soul at the door and enter
into half-hearted relationships with ourselves, children, colleagues
or existing learning systems. Disconnecting from our soul will only
last so long before something happens that awakens or forces us
to pay attention to our innermost desires and yearnings.
Our lives are
a blank canvas wherein we have the capacity to paint whatever masterpiece
we decide in an instant. When our actions are the purest expression
of our selfhood and giftedness, each day becomes
symbolic of our divinity and we shift from the ordinary to the extraordinary,
the irreverent to the sacred, from meaningless to mindfulness. Our
lives and our livelihood become a living prayer and opportunities
for seeing
spirit in everything abound.
Who we are and
what we do is not reducible to a set of out-dated teaching techniques
or scripted curriculums. We are far greater than our circumstances,
more benevolent than our history or our stories. Our personal vocational
pilgrimage is just that - personal and distinctively ours. We have
all stumbled and bumbled through many phases and aspects of our
careers. Yet, our soul's whispers (sometimes shoutings) and nudges
for fulfillment, meaning, purpose and wholeness, insist that we
stop betraying our true nature. When we comply or acquiesce to harmful
or hurtful practices, we compromise our values, visions and the
promptings of our heart. When we are not in communion with our deepest
truths, we are disloyal to our soul's desires.
Educators do
not need to endure survival mode nor live a livelihood of quiet
desperation. And there is no union
nor association that can change our experiences for us. As noble
stewards of our essence, we must be willing
to immerse ourselves in the questions that cultivate a renewed sense
of purpose, passion, reverence and appreciation for our soul's calling.
Parker Palmer
states that "vocation is the place where our deep gladness
and the world's deep needs meet." If you sense you have temporarily
journeyed away from your deep gladness, it's OK, you'll come back.
Your gifts are always being called forth into expression somehow,
someway so you can't travel too far before the Universal GPS responds.
Reflecting on the inquiries below has lovingly and gently guided
me to what is true and what is important. If you notice you are
complaining more than celebrating or anger persists over joy, I
hope your personal introspections will invoke a fresh vitality,
a renewed spirit and a clearer sense of your livelihood as sacred.
Before beginning
your inner inquisition, employ meditation, silence, solitude or
a nature walk to align with your internal life force that knows
no limitations or boundaries. Repeat any of the questions as often
as needed so that you peel away layers of uncertainty, fears or
judgments revealing hidden or undiscovered treasures. Allow
all responses to bubble forth, in their own timing, whether in the
form of words, pictures, symbols, phrases, or something else. Journaling
is great tool for keeping a log of your responses. Most of all,
allow your soul to
speak AND LISTEN!
Who
am I being or becoming at this stage of my livelihood?
What principles and truths are guiding my actions and choices?
Who is the self that teaches? (Parker Palmer)
What are the ways my soul uniquely desires expression?
How do I live my values in accordance with my deepest and highest
purpose?
What song is my soul singing to me at this particular place in
my career?
How am I utilizing my "birthright" gifts?
When do I feel most alive and why?
What is my deep gladness?
Too many educators
have adopted victim thinking, beliefs and behaviors by disengaging
from their heart's
callings and turning a deaf ear to their inner voice. Starting now,
give your soul the gift of conscious attention
by only permitting thoughts and actions to arise from a state of
deep listening and inner attunement where only truth is expressed.
Beloveds, do not let another single day pass by without letting
your light shine, your soul flourish, your heart sing and your spirit
dance with joy. And for those days when it seems impossible to do
so:
Remember
who you are.
Remember what you love.
Remember what is sacred.
Remember what is true.
Remember this day is a gift.
Remember how you wish to live.
Wayne Muller
May you always
know yourself as Spirit knows you
Abundant blessings of love, light, truth and joy during this season
of illumination.
Happy Holy Days,
From my heart,
Adrian Reznik
PS.
I am stimulated by my own newsletter to respond to my inner stirrings.
And so, instead of writing an "obligatory" monthly newsletter,
I prefer to write solely from inspiration. I'm not exactly certain
what will evolve from my heart's promptings, whether it manifests
as a monthly, bi-monthly or quarterly newsletter or more
frequent, brief ponderings or something else. I welcome the magical
and mysterious prospects! I hope you will enjoy the journey with
me.
Copyright
© 2006 Adrian Reznik
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